Special K - Adventures of a little boy
APPOINTMENTS
born: 02/19/03
due: 03/30/04
Monday, June 16, 2003
Definately Not What I Needed Right Now
I go back to work in three days and must admit I am a basketcase. I so don't want to leave my baby all day and go to work. I feel like a bad mother going from being with him 24/7 to maybe 4 hours a day. The I read this and felt even worse. Why can't I be a stay at home mom?
Thursday, June 12, 2003
Three Months Ago Today You Were Born
As I have said a zillion times before...WOW!! I can't believe how fast time flies. In honor of your birthday I took down the bassinet attachment on your Pack-N-Play today. You were just running out of room to move around in it. The funny thing is as soon as I put you down in the spacious bottom part you migrated to a tiny section at the top.
In other news I took you to the daycare center yesterday and you made a friend. His name is Jude and he is the only other boy in your class. He is older than you (8 months old) but you guys didn't seem to mind. It was so sweet when he crawled over to you and held your hand. The teachers were bummed they didn't have a camera for that. I have a feeling you two boys are going to get into all sorts of trouble.
You did something new today. You decided to show me that you are an expert thumb sucker. Problem is you haven't quite mastered the art and kept gagging yourself. At first I was concerned you were ill then I realized what you were doing. Each time it happened you would take the thumb out stare at it, give it a dirty look, and yell something at it then back in the mouth it went. I must say you kept me quite amused.
I sent an email out with Caleb's 3 month portraits. If you didn't receive them and would like to see them please email (lilspecialk@yahoo.com).
Monday, June 09, 2003
The Countdown Is On
I go back to work next week. I have exactly 9 days of freedom after today before its back to the old grind. I can not believe how quickly 4 months flew by. I am having a really tough time with returning to a full time job. I am looking forward to adult interaction and a change of scenery, but I will miss my little guy so much it hurts. I know I keep venting about this same topic, but it's all I can think about right now. I am well aware that once I do start back at work and a routine is set we'll be fine. Its the anticipation thats driving me wacko. Whaaa!!!
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
12 Weeks Already And Some Frustration
You my son are turning 12 weeks old today. To you this doesn't mean anything, but to me it is a sign of how quickly time is really passing. It seems like just yesterday I was holding my tiny 8 pound bundle in my arms. Now you are at least 15 pounds of chubby love and my arms hurt if I hold you for too long. The good thing about this passing age is that you are so alert and notice everything around you. Fortunately you have a great sense of humor and think your Mommy is silly (which I am). I love spending every minute (well most of them) of my day with you and I am so sad that soon you will be starting day care and I will return to work.
I'm sure I have mentioned before that I am well aware how lucky I was to get 14 weeks of maternity leave after you were born. I just am not ready to part with you for 9-10 hours each day. Daddy & I took you to the day care center on Monday and dropped all of your personal belongings off. You seemed to have a great time, but I wonder how you will be when I am not there. I also took you back to my office again. While I feel ready to return to work I just am having a hard time stomaching the idea of being seperated from my baby. Also, the concept of being 'Super Mom' scares me. I just don't know how I am going to be able to get everything done in a 24 hour period. We hired a woman to come clean our house which is a relief, but how about during the weekdays. We have to get up early to get both of us (you and I) ready to go, we have a 25 miles drive to work/day care, 9+ hours of work (one hour of it visiting you at lunch), 25 mile commute home, baths, dinner, laundry, make bottles for next day, playtime etc. I just don't know how it is going to happen. To make matters worse Daddy is super busy at work and putting in a lot of overtime. While I totally understand that it must be done I don't think he understands exactly how hectic my life is going to become. I am almost in tears trying to think of how I am going to do everything on my own. I must say I have sooooo much respect for single moms. I really don't know how they do it. I just hope Daddy sees what I am going through and pitches in a bit. I guess we'll have to wait and see what happens.
